Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act

On October 15th, remember the thousands of unfinished children lost and the families who remain to grieve them. Honor them by taking action. Let's help pass H.R. 5979.Action Steps:Step 1. Use Your Blog to Enlist Others-Copy the contents of this entire post and publish it on your blog immediately.GOAL: Enlist 10 of your readers to spread the wordStep 2. Use Your E-mail to Enlist Others-E-mail 5 bloggers and ask them (nicely and in an unspammy way) to publish these action steps on their blog. Consider contacting celebrity bloggers, political bloggers, medical bloggers, or bloggers who are not part of your reading community.GOAL: Enlist 3 bloggers outside of your normal blog sphere to spread the word in other online communities.Step 3. Help Pass the Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act-By October 15th, publish a post on your blog supporting H.R. 5979 Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act. For maximum impact, title your post: "Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act."

The News Is Out

Today is my last day in the first trimester.

"M" and i told our parents that they are gonna be grandparents in april, they were all so excited for us, "M's mom even started crying. My mom told us that when i go back to work after maternity leave she will look after the baby, she already wants to start painting the spare room and start decorating!!!!!!! Everytime i tell someone that i am pregnant it just seem so unreal i keep wondering if everything is still alright in there. I get to go for my first ultrasound on Saturday, I can't wait!!!!!

Dreams

I had the weirdest dream last night. I dreamt that i was a doctor and that i did a ultrasound on a guy, i don't know why i did it, but then i put the wand on my belly and i saw THREE babies!!!
And about a week ago i dreamt i was having a boy. Does anyone know what these dreams mean?

Doctors Appointment

I went to the doctor on friday, (M went with me) and told him that i'm pregnant. He did a examination on me and ordered some blood test to see how far along i am and to see what my blood type is. The nurse hurt me when she drew the blood, she first put the needle in my right arm and could not find a vein she was poking around in there, then she switched to the other arm and eventually drew the blood. I asked the doctor to do a ultrasound and he told me that it is still to early and that we wouldn't be able to see much, he told me to come back in 4 weeks time then we can do a ultrasound. He took everything so calm doesn't he understand that i want to know if my little bean is alright in there!!!!!

Anyways I got the test results back the next day and i am 7 weeks pregnant, and everything looks fine. He put me on folic acid and iron pills.

I've had some episodes of morning sickness, or should i call it all day sickness, which i didn't have when i was pregnant the first time, so maby it is a good sign that this baby will stick around the whole nine months this time around and not just for two.

It has stopped

Well the spotting has stopped.
It wasn't alot and only when i wiped, it was a very light brown colour ( i know it's a little too much information, but hey, it's my blog if you dont like it don't read it.) I didn't tell M about the spotting, i don't want him to worry, Last night while i was lying in bed doing crossword puzzels he put his hand on my tummy and asked me if our little one was growing nicely. I was so shocked i didn't know what to say to him, I told him that we will see on saterday. With the first pregnancy he never touched my belly and with this one he does it almost daily.

Not Again!!!!

Oh shit
I went to the toilet and after i wiped i found some brown spotting on the toilet paper, not much but it was there. I am so scared the thoughts of my miscarriage in march kept running through my head. I am seeing the doctor on the 23rd. I just hope everything is okay untill then, i really don't want to lose this baby!!!

April

According to the internet my due date is the 15 April 2009. It's really weird, my birthday is on the 24 and M's birthday is on the 23rd of April.
Maby April is a good month for our little family. Let's just hope this pregnancy lasts until then.

5 Weeks

Well according to my calculations i am 5 weeks pregnant, still 35 weeks to go, if it lasts till then. I really want to write about all my feelings towards this pregnancy but i can't, not now, maby at a later stage when i am further along. I did another pee test in the middle of the day and the results came back almost instantly.
I have an appointment with the doctor in two weeks time, let's just hope and pray that nothing goes wrong in the meantime.

Positive

I've got a lot of blogging to do so lets start;

My period was late this month, i did a pregnancy test this morning and it came back POSITIVE, I don't know if i should be happy or not, i can't believe it. I haven't even told M yet. We are having a bit of problems lately and i don't know how he will respond to the news.

In other aspects of my life, my mom thinks that she may have oral cancer. I took her to the doctor last week and he said that she has a infection in her mouth and in her throught, he needs to clear that up first before he can make a diagnosis. he put her on antibiotics and she has to go back on friday to see him again.

Early Visit

Dear AF

I expected you to come and visit only next week. You should at least give me some warning if you decide to come early. Do you like tormenting me?

Feng shui

I read this article on fertility and feng shui, i don't know if it can work, but i am so desperate and will try anything.

Has anybody tried feng shui? And has it worked for you?

Feeling Sick

I have been feeling sick for the last couple of days, and i went to go see a doctor yesterday, she told me that i have bronchitis and gave me antibiotics and some other pills to drink. When i was in the consultation room with her, she asked me if i could be pregnant (she wanted to know before she put me on the antibiotics) I told her that "maybe" we have been trying for the last year. She did a pregnancy test and it came back negative (No suprise) So M and i will just have to keep trying again.

In other news, We had one of M's colleagues over for dinner, he brought his 7 month pregnant wife with him, i couldn't help starring at her belly the whole time, i thought to my self if i didn't have the miscarriage i would have been almost 7 months pregnant right now, i would also have a belly like that. I think what made me mad the most is that she still drinks wine and smokes!!!!
How the hell do you drink and smoke while 7 months pregnant don't you know what you are doing to that unborn child. Even when i am in the two week wait i won't dare touch a alcoholic drink. I know i want to give my future child a healthy start in life, how can she do that to a innocent baby, some people (in my opinion) shouldn't get the privilage of being parents.

Great dad

Yesterday we had M's mother and sister (with her 20 month old son) over for dinner. He is so cute, he can almost say the ABC's all on his own. M is really great with him, I know that he will be a great dad, I just wish that i can give him the opportunity to be one, and that i can be a mom.

I am ovulating, so we will have to do the baby dans tonight, and just hope for the best.

My Babies

Take a look at my new puppies!!!











They are 6 and 7 weeks old.

I need to be a mother, i need to care for someone, and nurture it, and since i am batteling to get pregnant these puppies will just have to deal with me fondling over them.

Nope, Still Trying

Nope not pregnant, i got my hopes up for nothing, I think my body likes tormenting me, making me believe that there just might be a chance then grabbing it out of my hand again. Im making a promise to myself today, i will not get my hopes up before i miss my period.

Counting down

Only 3 days till my period is expected, i haven't peed on a pregnancy test yet, i want to hold out till monday, I really hope I am pregnant

Could it be

I am not getting my hopes up, but i ovulated on 2 June and yesterday i had some brown spotting, it's not much only when i wiped and only once, and this morning too. I know it's too early to be my period, Could it be implantation bleeding? Or am my hormones so out of balance? I so want to whip out a pregnancy test, but i know it's still to early. I am going to try and hold out till my period is expected before i pee on a stick, But like i said, i am not getting my hopes up, But i am holding thumbs.

Good & Bad News

I have been such a bad blogger these days, i haven't posted in over two weeks. I have a lot of catching up to do, so let's start.

First i want to tell you that C and his Psycho girlfriend have moved out (Yes!!!) He Got a better job, and moved back to his Mom, His mom stays closer to his work than we do. He still has to come and collect most of his things from us. I am so happy things worked out.

I have a brother that i haven't seen or spoken to in almost five years, My sister ocassionally has contact with him, and she told me that he is back on the drugs again, he was clean for almost 3 years from what i hear. She told me he got back on the drugs after his baby died ( WHAT?) His girlfriend went into labour and delivered a 700 gram baby boy, he lived for a couple of hours then he died, from what i understand he was very premature and his lungs didn't develope properly. I didn't even know that he had a girlfriend and that she was pregnant, I feel so sorry for them, I want to get in contact with him, to give him my support, but i don't know how to get hold of him, nobody even has a telephone number for him. He only phones my sister but has never given her his telephone number. He should stop using drugs and be with his wife, she needs him now more than ever, they need to be there for each other.

Frustrated

I am having one of those days that nothing goes my way, that everyone and everything irritates me. First a Taxi tries to push me off the road, i have to slam on the brakes because he wants to stop and let his passengers out (by a green robot), then my boss want's to know what a collegue of mine is doing (Why doesn't he go and ask him), then my computer crashes and i have to restart it losing all unsaved data, (which i will have to re-do). Today is not my day. I just want to go home and climb in bed.

Xenophobia

Things are getting bad, there are at least 44 people dead since the Xenophobia attacks started. It has gotten so bad that the goverment has deployed the army to help cause they can't cope on there own. I work about about a kilometer away from a rural settlement and everyday for the past week i look out the window and see police patrol cars driving up and down the streets.

Read this article http://www.thetimes.co.za/specialreports/Xenophobia/Default.aspx?id=380077