Great dad

Yesterday we had M's mother and sister (with her 20 month old son) over for dinner. He is so cute, he can almost say the ABC's all on his own. M is really great with him, I know that he will be a great dad, I just wish that i can give him the opportunity to be one, and that i can be a mom.

I am ovulating, so we will have to do the baby dans tonight, and just hope for the best.

My Babies

Take a look at my new puppies!!!











They are 6 and 7 weeks old.

I need to be a mother, i need to care for someone, and nurture it, and since i am batteling to get pregnant these puppies will just have to deal with me fondling over them.

Nope, Still Trying

Nope not pregnant, i got my hopes up for nothing, I think my body likes tormenting me, making me believe that there just might be a chance then grabbing it out of my hand again. Im making a promise to myself today, i will not get my hopes up before i miss my period.

Counting down

Only 3 days till my period is expected, i haven't peed on a pregnancy test yet, i want to hold out till monday, I really hope I am pregnant

Could it be

I am not getting my hopes up, but i ovulated on 2 June and yesterday i had some brown spotting, it's not much only when i wiped and only once, and this morning too. I know it's too early to be my period, Could it be implantation bleeding? Or am my hormones so out of balance? I so want to whip out a pregnancy test, but i know it's still to early. I am going to try and hold out till my period is expected before i pee on a stick, But like i said, i am not getting my hopes up, But i am holding thumbs.

Good & Bad News

I have been such a bad blogger these days, i haven't posted in over two weeks. I have a lot of catching up to do, so let's start.

First i want to tell you that C and his Psycho girlfriend have moved out (Yes!!!) He Got a better job, and moved back to his Mom, His mom stays closer to his work than we do. He still has to come and collect most of his things from us. I am so happy things worked out.

I have a brother that i haven't seen or spoken to in almost five years, My sister ocassionally has contact with him, and she told me that he is back on the drugs again, he was clean for almost 3 years from what i hear. She told me he got back on the drugs after his baby died ( WHAT?) His girlfriend went into labour and delivered a 700 gram baby boy, he lived for a couple of hours then he died, from what i understand he was very premature and his lungs didn't develope properly. I didn't even know that he had a girlfriend and that she was pregnant, I feel so sorry for them, I want to get in contact with him, to give him my support, but i don't know how to get hold of him, nobody even has a telephone number for him. He only phones my sister but has never given her his telephone number. He should stop using drugs and be with his wife, she needs him now more than ever, they need to be there for each other.